My Best fight ever

Where Shall I Park My Foot for Eternity

I have my first fight when I give birth to my eldest son...though I am already matured for it but I am an innocent for the same. I thought it was the end of the world because of the pain that I endured. The labor in giving birth is no doubt any mother can tell a unique story. I considered my major ovarian operation as another fight in this journey but I survive with 1% of survival, according to my surgeon, documented by the Waiver form signed by my hubby, going back October 15 1994. Another fight again that I fought for my life is when I am diagnosed for a breast cancer in February 2003. But I consider this health problem now to be my best fight ever. It is this stage tat I am fighting for undefined emotional stress, depression and deteriorating hope to win again. I have so many wins in life as I mentioned above and I am afraid God wont provide me another win for I have asked too much. I just hope that God will be kind to me again and give me another extension. If not, this lens will be the last lens I can create as product of my memory.

I hope for the Best Win

With more endurance in life, health problem became my best friend for God is so kind to me. When I undergo with my major Ovarian Operation, my eldest son was in Elementary Grade. I knew my children cannot survived if I die in this stage. I have an ovarian cyst in 1994. It was already acute when discovered. For the benefit of my reader I have included some information about this health problem in the following paragraph and phrases. (ovarian cyst is any collection of fluid, surrounded by a very thin wall, within an ovary. Any ovarian follicle that is larger than about two centimeters is termed an ovarian cyst. An ovarian cyst can be as small as a pea, or larger than a cantaloupe. Most ovarian cysts are functional in nature, and harmless (benign).[1] In the US, ovarian cysts are found in nearly all premenopausal women, and in up to 14.8% of postmenopausal women. Ovarian cysts affect women of all ages. They occur most often, however, during a woman's childbearing years. Some ovarian cysts cause problems, such as bleeding and pain. Surgery may be required to remove cysts larger than 5 centimeters in diameter.) My attending Physician have explained to me that the very reason for my survival despite my very inch of rate survival is my interest to live. My veins collapsed allowing Dextrose to discontinue. My medical records showed that I have gone to 60/40 Blood Pressure. The Physician advised for Blood transfusions. My family did but was not done to me for miracles that my Doctor said that happened. The attending physician almost lost hope too, but when I request for a pain reliever, he provide me Novane, a very controversial pain reliever that brings the patients in so many side effects but turned very helpful to me. I was scheduled for operation early in the 15th day of October, 1994 however my blood pressure got unstable and was reschedule until 3 in the afternoon of the same date. This was very successful. God has granted my wish for the sake of my children. With out warning, I have another fight...my breast cancer in the early summer of 2003. I received my last dose of Chemotherapy last December of 2003. I almost give up because of the undefined discomfort of the therapy. However I have no option so I must. Again, I thanks God for another extension of my life, perhaps not only for my family but for a legacy that awaited for my total commitment in life. After my Chemotherapy, I give up all my family businesses run and managed by me. I leave them to my Children. I ran a newly-opened Rural National High School for seeing the needs of the Community and the Students. I dedicate my life, my wealth to this School. Though I became poor but when I see the smiles of the students, I feel as if I am the wealthiest woman in the world. Some related stories and writings can be seen in my related Blogs and Lenses that I need not to mention it here. Last October of 2007, I have a deep emotional stressed. I assume it be cause by my son's dashing manhood. He married two girls in a day. This cause my to exhaust all my effort and much of my riches and capacity. I was not able to find out that I was suffering another health problem. My Doctor said I was only on a serious emotional stress and she provided me medicines. I was temporarily cured but I started to loss my weight. I feel as I am really fighting for a temporary emotional stress when I lost my interest to live. As if I fulfilled all my purpose in life. My fellow teachers came and cried when I declared to withdraw my three Mathematics subjects to one of them of whom I trusted to carry them fully. I expressed a total contentment and confessed my interest in life. The different between my fight of today to that of the other health problem is my interest to live. Although I have not fulfilled more of my commitment at school but I am fine with my other school accomplishment. Recently, I was diagnosed again for another stage of cancer, and it is liver cancer caused by my breast cancer then in 2003. Base on my research, a breast tumor may transfer to any are near it. I happens to be in my liver and already have ten metastases in both lobes. I discovered, though I did not meet my Oncologist first that the only medicines is to have a Chemotherapy. This was disclosed to me too by my attending physician recently. With out providing me much information about my health problem she referred me to my Oncologist. I have not seen my Oncologist yet because of the Halloween. Perhaps after the Holidays I can see him and can know more about my health problem. I consider this health fight to be my best fight ever. I do not not how to fight for I have exhausted all my strength. I hope God will give another life extension. Thanks for my husband, my only daughter to my son, Cocon for the sincere services they extended. I pray that like, they will also win.